Mold in those secret places
Today I randomly decided to clean my refrigerator. Generally I keep my fridge clean. Although on rare occasions I begin to ponder on how it is getting too cluttered. On a seconds notice, I find myself completely stripping out the chaos so that I can reorganize. I look for foods that may have expired or are right around the corner from that.
As Josh and I began to excitedly rip apart the freezer and fridge, we came across an unexpected surprise. An old container of mascarpone cheese. I slowly lifted the lid back to find what looked like dark green worms. I quickly shut it and gasped. Joshua said, “mom, what is it?” Nothing, Joshua. I beg you not to look. Spare yourself the horror, I said. As I laughed out loud.. He, replied with a smile and said, “no way, I’m looking.” Alright, I warned you. He repeated the frightening ritual of opening slowly, the unknown. As the loudest shriek came from him, I began to laugh hysterically. Bend over, holding my tummy, I cried, “I told you so. “Ewww”, he yelled. I know right! Gross, yuck, disgusting. We both ran to get our cameras so that we could grab a snapshot of this amazing discovery. This was the beginning of me contemplating what had just happened and how it so related to what God has been imparting to my heart over the past couple of years.
You see, from the outside my fridge looked clean, at times even downright sparkly. I, nor my son would have ever expected to find such horror, buried inside a contained that looked so perfectly clean and new on the outside. I was not aware of what was going on inside that little container. I believe that, had I not looked, I would of left that disgusting mold alone until it grew legs and crawled out of the refrigerator.
Up until now this was pretty funny, until I looked at it with my spiritual eyes and made the comparison of that horrible, disgusting mold to my horrible disgusting heart. The Holy Spirit has been constantly leading me back to the Truth that says, Mark 10:18 and Jesus said unto him, Why callest thou me good? there is none good but one, that is, God. Paul repeatedly spoke of his weakness and replies, speaking as a Christian, says, "I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out." Romans 7:18.
I remember when I began to learn these principles. I would think to myself. Well hey, I follow the laws of government and I pretty much follow the 10 commandments to the point of being a goody two shoes. I am nice to others, I do nice things and am polite. Ooo man was I deceived. Romans 3:23 says, “All have sinned and fallen short of the Glory of God” We were born into sin. You do not have to teach a young child to be naughty. You need to teach him the ways of God, but never to be naughty. We do that from birth on.
How often we forget that in Samuel it says, “The Lord said to Samuel, “Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The Lord does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.” Most assuredly most of us will find a relationship with Christ and begin to work on the outside. Our works and our acts. We continue, in most instances, way before we come close to dealing with our hearts. You see most of us still believe that if the outside looks good, clean and shiny there must be no problem whatsoever on the inside. Until the day you are willing to allow God to break your heart for Him. The day that and you know that the motives and desires of your heart must be submitted to your Holy God, will you ever begin to come into true genuine fellowship with the real God, creator of the universe. The God that sacrificed His beloved,His only son for your wicked heart. For my wicked heart.
Most times it is so much easier to submit in those outward appearances than to let the Lord dig up all those evil motives of the heart. That hatred towards your neighbor. The envy and lust in your heart. The selfish ambition you hold so deep inside that you have no clue it exists.
For so long I saw myself on the outside. I knew that it was the other people, the circumstances of life that caused me to remain in a wounded place. Until I was willing to lift the lid off and let God show me the evil mold spores that lurked in the dark, I remained wounded. There is nothing easy about letting the God show us our dirty, disgusting hearts but when He does there is nothing like it. He can begin to heal and restore the real you back to Him. Not the the imitation, fake, put on a happy face you. The real you, back to that sacred place where He dwells. David said, Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts: And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting. ... Psalm 139:23. What a beautiful heart towards God, David displayed.
When I finally found that cheese, it took mere seconds for me to throw it out. Why? Repenting with a sincere heart towards God takes mere seconds. In John 1:9 it says “If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness”
Today I am happy I decided to clean my yucky dirty refrigerator. You see, although it looks just fine by a quick glance. Once I tore it apart is when I discovered what was truly lurking there.